i feel like to BLAME God for planning to end my beloved so called cousin's life.

why must he haf to die!?

he is only a yr younger than me.

and somemore he is only a son of the family!

OH GOD WHY?!

we r grieving over his death.

it happened last week- 7 march.

i also blame myself

cos that day i had enjoyed myself @ SPARKZ

while in china, my so called cousin died.

i first met him when i was in sec 1

he is cheerful and lively boy

who can bring the joy and laughter into us as well as his whole family!

god's plan for his life...

that is TOO MUCH!

when i heard the bad news after i went home after shopping wif my mum,

i thought he might be some other relative that i dunno.

i keeping hoping

that it would not be my so called cousin.

that's wat i believed

but in the end, my dad showed me the photo...

so it was him.

i was like going to cry.

i kept thinking repeatedly,

"maybe not him! he is not that kind of person who want to die.

oh please!"

i feel like to SCREAM at god but i cant.

we haf to go forwards and face it

we cant go back to stop it frm happening

and also we cant control things around us frm happening.

wat i really want is to FREEZE THE TIME

and stop bad things frm happening!