God, help me!

what can i do and what should i do?

i dunno whether i made the rite choice.

i was stressed recently and

NOW i am getting more pressure tat i cant take it anymore.

i was down... DOWN, DROWNING into the depth of HELL!

hey u, u r the only one who know abt my suffocated life just now...

u say is correct that i haf no confident.

yes, it is true.

but i think there is sth amiss.

because i cant do it in sort of too fast and some more i cant be like beile when comes to r***********....

that kind of outcome which gives u and ivy's sort of "bad" impression abt it.

u get wat i mean.

yet u tell me, " try luh", then "F*** u" and in the end "i dun wanna talk to u anymore".

tis really hurt me rite this and that!

furthermore u dun say sth to comfort me, yea???

well, haiz!

nah, not ur fault or him.

sorry for trouble ya alrite.

i think i should respect my choice.

if wrong, my fault...

or other way, maybe i am coward for running away without trying it out.

i dunno.. dunno who is CORRECT!????

me or u????

:(

shit, i am alr in a state of confusion !

perhaps, i was like no good enough compared to other outspoken and strong gals like u or ivy or so whoever.

who plan this?!

i am freaking tired of it!